Make me whole.
As of late, I’ve been praying these three words.
Make me whole.
Maybe you’ve been praying something along the same lines.
Maybe you’ve been praying this for yourself or a relationship or our world.
As it turns out, brokenness is all around us.
But so is hope.

These three words are an honest prayer of surrender.
And surrendering is hard.
And often uncomfortable.
But also quite freeing.

When I ask God to make me whole I am not asking for Him to make my life perfect.
In many ways I am simply asking for Him to do what He does: draw near.
To remove the things that are keeping me from Him; that are blocking the light from making its way in.

There is this peace that comes along with handing over our questions and fears and distractions and pieces to God and letting go of what of the things we’ve been holding onto with a tight grip.
And I’ve been holding onto a lot with a tight grip.

Yet, I trust God will draw near.
And I believe only God can make me whole.

Not money.
Or status.
Or security.
Or a self-help book.
Or achievement.
Or another cookie.
Or whatever else.

But Him alone.

It is only in Him that I am made whole.

I’m starting to realize that not much is going to make sense or feel right this side of heaven.
And that’s okay.
Despite the constant heaviness and brokenness, I believe in Him all things are held together and He is making all things new out of love.
I don’t know how, but I do know this would all be much worse without Him.
He is always doing more than I can see or give Him credit for.
I’m sure that’s something He and I will discuss over breakfast one day.
But for now, I will continue to pray those three words.
Make me whole.
I will pray for God to take these broken pieces and make me whole; that I will surrender and rest in grace and live with peace.

And this is where I am at today.

I am looking up and asking God to make me whole, believing that He will.

take these broken pieces
and make me whole
the pieces I’m hiding
the pieces I’ve lost
the pieces I’ve forgotten
and make me whole

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